I’ve been lonely lately, something that I think a lot of us feel at some point in our lives, or honestly, a lot of points.
I’ve felt off lately. People have been asking every day how Rome is, and completing the conversation with something like “Ugh, so jealous,” making me angry with myself for not being fully ecstatic with my current situation. I was blaming it on my jet lag, or being on the East Coast all summer, or the lack of vegetables in my diet, as if I was eating vegetables to start with.
Long story short, one of my favorite filmmakers made a video yesterday called I feel lonely, and after watching it I realized, I was just lonely. I didn’t want to label it as loneliness because of the fear of convincing myself that it means I’m unhappy, which isn’t the case at all.
Hopefully now you’ve watched it, how nice was that. Mainly because it’s short and sweet and makes you think about things, and because the background music sounds cinematic as fuck.
This is what I’ve realized being wine drunk and lonely.
It’s okay to be by yourself and to feel like you don’t have a lot of connections. I think a lot of the time I prevent myself from having alone time because I see what other people are doing online or I see people near me going off with other people and I get the constant case of unnecessary fomo.
Turn your phone off.
Go for a walk.
Make a homemade pizza and dance around your kitchen.
Dedicate a whole day to going somewhere and drawing something.
Sit outside at night and listen to music by yourself.
Go to a sit down restaurant and order a meal for one.
I think times like this can be used to get to know yourself and to create, so I suppose I’m embracing loneliness and trying to make something really cool out of it. Shoutout to all my lonely people out there.
Here’s to wholehearted happiness and dancing around your kitchen by yourself to Frank Ocean.